Does prayer come easy for you?
I have a lot of conversational type prayer. You know what I mean don't you?
The kind of prayer or conversation you have on and off all day long with God.
You don't actually stop and begin a formal prayer but you are talking with Him and sharing your day.
Then there is the end of the day prayer.
That's a tougher one.
How many times have you fell asleep while praying?
If you are like me more than you would like to tell about.
Then there is the last minute, I better hurry up and pray type of prayer. I've had my share of those as well.
Today I'm talking about planned prayer time.
Is it hard for you to pray during planned prayer time.
Does your mind go blank or does it wander away?
Do you even find yourself bored sometimes?
Do you sometimes feel like there is nothing to pray about even though the world is spinning out of control all around us?
I can answer yes to all of those questions, I've felt all those things.
A prayer journal seems to help me with a lot of those prayer problems.
I have a couple of pretty ones and I have some that are just bound notebooks. I have some that are just scrape pieces of paper I scrawled on when it was pray or lose my mind and I didn't have my journal.
I don't know why but there is something about writing your prayers.
Give it a try if you never have, even if you think you are not a writer. When you write it is easier to stay focused.
When you start to write a prayer of thanks or supplication for a family member you will be reminded of another family member and then you will start writing about them.
When you write about what's going on with one friend your other friend will be brought to your mind and you will start praying for them too.
Sometimes when I'm whining to God the best way for me to catch myself is to see it in print. Then I look at it and think, "oh no, you didn't see that did you God?" Written prayer can be a real good form of self evaluation.
When I look back at my prayer journal I can tell my state of mind by my writing. If I'm upset as in mad upset, I write real big and fast and sloppy. I guess it's a shouting prayer or that's how it looks anyway. My spirit is shouting. I notice that after a bit it returns to normal size.
I guess I had found the peace I had came looking for.
Sometimes I like to look back over them and see the things that have been answered, other times I look back over them and think, have I really been praying about this for that long?
Sometimes I go back and read my prayers and think , boy, did you really write that, this is good. I say to myself, maybe I better put this one toward the front then when I die someone will see it. They may even read it at my funeral and say, "Boy could she pray."
Other times I read what I prayed about and think I better tear this out and burn it lest I die and someone find it. I would never want anyone to know I thought this or did that.
Sometimes when I'm looking back I'm blessed to see where I am compared to where I was.
Sometimes I've been going forward and sometimes my prayer journal has shown me I was slipping.
The written word doesn't lie.
You will find things out about yourself that maybe you couldn't see until they had been written.
I don't keep every prayer I write, that would be unwise.
Sometimes things are better thrown away but the act of writing your prayer can be a release and you'll find there is no need to keep it.
I hope you will take some time to write your prayers.
You will be amazed at how much more focused you will be.
Oh you may still sit there and stare at the paper for a few minutes but once you put pen to paper your heart will take over and your hand will start moving and either you or the things you are praying about will start changing.
It might happen fast or you might pray for years but you can rest assured in a world where it feels like no one is listening and it's hard to be heard, God is listening, He hears you.
I always like to imagine God sitting up in His throne, leaning forward with His ear bent toward earth when I pray.
I like to think He doesn't want to miss a word.
Don't wait another day, stop by the store or raid your kids school supplies and start your prayer journal today.
You will never be sorry, and remember God is sitting up and leaning forward just waiting for you to begin. He doesn't want to miss a thing you have to say.